Life is a bully.

Life is a bully, that stabs my heart,

the blood pours out, it’s torn apart.

Life is a bully, that punches my soul,

makes it ache, takes it’s toll.

Life is a bully, that confuses my head,

makes me believe, I want to be dead.

Life is a bully, that ruins my dreams,

makes me angry, holler and scream.

Life is a bully, that will just keep on,

until it’s the winner and I am gone.

Words make wounds.

I tried so hard to smile today,

to keep my sorrow locked away.

But the comment you made, cut me down,

wiped my smile and made me frown.

The way you spoke behind my back,

gave my heart a hefty whack.

I’ve always tried to give and please,

I don’t understand, your need to tease.

When you stared at me, I held back tears,

I felt surrounded by my fears,

I’m filled with dread, I want to run,

far away from everyone.

Departure time.

I hurt, I hurt, emotionally,

I am not who I want to be.

Life took my soul, I’m an empty shell,

A depression hole, into which I fell.

The constant aches and tiring pain,

means I’ve fell back down again.

Naughtily, I stopped my meds,

they just kept messing with my head.

It hurts to move, or sit up straight,

can’t sleep at night, ‘mind’ working late.

My breathing struggles, I hear the wheeze,

I wish the tightness, would start to ease.

I’m broken and faulty, do not repair,

My mind is blank, I sit and stare.

Confused and tired, feeling low,

a one-way ticket, off I go.

Catching up.

It’s 3:00 am in the morning and I am unable to sleep. So I thought I would use the time productively, to catch up with my online friends.

Omg! I didn’t realise just how long I’d been away. I have missed so many posts, infact I feel very selfish that I have not been here to comfort my friends through their journeys.

Sometimes life just moves too fast and goes by so quick, that I get left behind.

Things have been very hectic and stressful lately, but when I read my friends blog (SmileBe4Tears), it puts a lot of things into perspective. Never I have I felt so in awe of a woman’s determination and strength. Through continuous pain, she forces herself to keep going, looking for glimmers of hope in everything. As well as the endless hurdles and struggles that she has to deal with daily, this Superwoman still takes the time to check in with her friends and ask how they are. A heart of gold.

Sending her love and support across the waters. x😊😊x

Hectic home.

It’s been a while, since I’ve been here,

I’ve had a change in my career.

Through the stress, I’ve kept my cool,

my son is starting, a different school.

Kids that bully, are cruel and mean,

a huge difference, in my son I’ve seen.

Quiet and withdrawn, in his room,

his smile has gone, replaced with gloom.

The bullies made us move away,

my son’s new school, will start Monday.

I hope a fresh start, will do him good,

I’d banish bullies, if I could.

It breaks my heart, to see him sad,

he’s such a loving, giving lad.

My other son, has moved back home,

hogging bathroom, food and phone.

My full time job and a house of seven,

is certainly not my idea of heaven.

My calender is full, everyday,

I’d like some ‘me time’ if I may?

My request unheard, I start the chores,

washing clothes and cleaning floors.

The doorbell rings, the phone does too,

my house is busier, than a zoo.

Friends staying over, and visitors here,

I long to have a day that’s clear.

My health has suffered, from the strain,

Especially, comfort eating, weight gain.