Frustratingly, the concoction of medicines that I am taking, have various side effects.
- Drowsiness, (when I already suffer from fatigue) causing lack of exercise.
- Increased appetite (when I already comfort eat with my depression).
- Slow metabolism (which I already have from my polycystic ovaries).
- Water retention.
- Some can even cause depression (which I am already diagnosed with).
These are just some. Basically, I have gained a lot of weight, which is really starting to bother me and become a huge issue.
Because of my anxiety, I often start too hot, over-heating and perspiring under stressful situations.
I then worry, that strangers think I am sweating just because I’m fat and unfit. I feel that they look at me in disgust.
I only really leave my house, to go to 1 of my 4 comfort zones. (Parents, doctor’s, neighbour’s and work).
When I’m at work, I stay in my own area of the building, I very rarely go in the staff room, and I never eat any lunch. The thought of eating in front of people scares me. I’m sure they can just see an overweight pig eating from a trough. Because that’s how I see me.
I have a spare diary (page-a-day type) and I have decided to keep a daily food journal to help cut down on my food intake / calories.
My first weigh-in and food log starts in the morning (Monday 20th July 2015).
I HAVE to do this, as part of my whole confidence / self esteem boost. xxx